silent torture

just got back frm school! dunno why today so bersemangat. mayb coz last nite slept at 11 pm. supposed to wake up at 2.30am to study but as usual.. tak jadi. ahakz. so in the end i had 6 hours 45 minutes of sleep. in school today went library for the first period. whoa! nicee.. all the aircons on! so cold, yet so comfortable. hehehe.. i choose the seat where the air con blew.. so niceee! tee hee! XD . nyway, then had sejarah. teacher gave us a kertas model. hey, not bad la. i nv study, my makrs, okok la. haha.. then we did form 1 syllabus test last week. today we mark. not bad.. i tot i will get more than half wrong coz i didnt read form 1 *i NEVER did.. ehhe* but alas, i got only.. 5 wrong! wooHooo!!! hahaha.. was so happy. BUT, must work harder. strive for perfection. hehe.. sincerely, im kinda worried abt my PMR. its not like im trying to blow my own trumpet but everyone goes like.. "aiyo Elynn, no need worry lah you. sure straight A's wan la!" but too bad i dun think tat way. so does my parents, and a few people. hehe. oh well, its a way to make me prove to them AND to MYSELF tat i CAn do it! XD dunno why i feel so relaxed despite the fact tat PMR is like.. 20 days more, approx 480 hours more. i cant deny tat i hav some things tats making me lose my concentration. but i cant help it! how much i try to resisit, i just cant. temptationss! buddhism says one of the main cause of suffering is craving. hav to admit its true lor. haha. coz cravings = tempatations. ryte? lolz. went dhamma class yesterday. uncle dennis taught us meditation. one was concentrating on our breathing (too bad i didnt get to experience tat coz i lepak around temple! haha), nex was metta meditation where by meditating we kinda like spread love. yea, its hard to explain-lah! hehe. feel beter knw after all those. =) oh yeaa.. when i came home just now then sunway college sent me a good luck card! for PMR! aww.. so sweet. anyway, i wonder if exams are killing me. no, not coz of stress. haha. i am getting fatter coz i tend to crave for all those fattening food. eg ice cream, peanut butter, keropok, and chocolates! yummy! hehe.. oh and im officially stress freee! coz my preriod just came. i knw it sounds disgusting but.. if my period doesnt come means im under stress and i dun like it. haha. oh crap, later having swimming. ahh juz go into the water ni lah. aha. afterall, i always do tat wat! blueks! i knw it too early but im thinking abt nex year's tuitions. juz found out tat nex years gonna be a super duper busy year. tuiitons after school, koku activities, study, etc etc. i might not hav time to shop! argh! haha. dunno.. wanna take moto license nex year. but the one and only miss elaine suah ee leng poisoned my mum's mind into not letting me take moto license. coz accorind to the one and only might miss elaine suah ee leng (again), my far far far far far super duper far relative died coz of a moto accident. dun care. i still want my moto license! and i wan a new moto! tee heee! XD okie dokie, gotta go study. chiao everyone..