should i?

crappy.. pmr is 4 days away. my stomach is so pain now. these few days i rasa tak sedap badan la. smtg wrong with my body. -.-" anyway i got this offer for merit award. i dunno if i shud apply. hav to say its gonna cost alot but well, its for my future. i dunno.. i just cant concentrate on studying now. after i received the letter. i dunno! all i need now.. i mean, need to talk to julian. see what he thinks. argh! help! i think im getting sick.