Scribbles

ahhh~i still remember the song "only love" by trademakr. whenever i hear tat song, it reminds me of yenyi. ahhahahaha. he sent me tat song la. no other meaning kay. but then i remember sheding a tear when i first listened to it. its niceee! tat time i was having some personal problem i guess.. so i kinda.. er.. was touched when i listened to it coz its like yenyi's words. but i knw it wasnt. ahhahhahaha. no offense. =P reading thru my testis in frenster. kinda sweet u knw, how i used to exchange testi with some other people who seems to disappear now. all those wonderful frens, guys i mean, now all having their own world. cant blame them tho. this is life ryte. =) but it was great having them around last time. =P even kor as changed, he used to be so niceeeee so caring.. such a wonderful kor. well now, i guess he's just.. busy.. and living in his world. enjoying life. happy tat he is anyways. im not saying that my frens now are all baddy baddy wan. just that, i had mroe good frens last time. now very few lor. and im talking abt guys la. girls, i got soooooo many! yahoo! hehehhehehe.. =P it feels nice to know u have someone to fall back on. i used to have a fren, very close fren, a storng and nice guy, who would always catch me if i was falling, and pull me up when i was down. but now, he's gone. we dont even talk to each other. he changed his number and acted like nothing happened. i pretend to not know anything.. but i guess i know everything. it hurts u knw, some way, but its just.. undescribable. sobs. ='( he even said i was weak, juz coz i fainted in school. dont you realise? i keep so much insdie since we didnt talk to each other. sometimes i know all i want is you, all i need is you. but u were never there, u refused to be there. how could you? well i just hope you're happy lar. wat else can i do? i lost the person who showed me the true meaning of loving. blind love. the true meaning of sacrifice, hate, anger, jelousy, and frens. u did all kind of things. sometimes i wonder.. shud i remember u as a good guy, or a bad guy? im not sure. but one things for sure.. i'll always remember you. oh since no one would actually read this post/blog.. i'd continue.. lepas-ing all my frustrations. i guess. sometimes i just feel like telling you d truth. but im afraid im just.. tepuk-ing tangan sebelah. its not easy u knw, seeing u flirt. and seeing u going out with so many gf(s) when i knew u. i know u had many many gf before. hahahaa.. i knw how u flirt. u even told me. u flirted with me. ish. anyways, i knw who the true u r. u knw i knw it. why pretend? i duno wat to think now. i dunno wat to say. im just so.. confused. abt my feelings towards you. u're the most leceh creature in the world, but weird.. i still cant let you go no matter how hard i try. would u just let me know the truth.. how u feel? i just wanna knw.. even if it means breaking my heart, i wouldnt mind. i just want the truth. tats all. and i hope we would be frens again. close frens. i've always loved u like a bro. u even said we're like sublings. ryte? but what now? i love you more than my korkor u know.. and coz of u i think my relationship with my godbro.. was spoilt. but i didnt mind. i guess... AHHHHH~~i dunno wat to think. h.e.l.p!