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ok.. im back.. its now abr 2.41 am.. cant sleep.. haha.. scared.. ehhehe... anyway.. just now online suddenly so many ppl chat to me.. sigh.. haha.. but d most interesting was chattin to ignatius.. hehe.. other than tat was chattin to allison, wc and ck.. nth much to ck and wc.. were had the 3 ppl in a conversatiion thing.. they both were toking abt tkd.. haha.. and i hate tkd.. too bad... haha.. so i didnt say anything, anyway, after wat happen between me and ck, we dun tok tat much anymore,.. i also like.. when tok to him.. he like dowan to tok to me.. oh well, mayb we shud just stay as fren, but no tok d.. eh? haha.. guess tats d best.. i will always remember him as a very extra good fren anyway.. =) .. its true anyway.. anyway, ck if u r reading this, erm.. i really wanna b terus terang.. i think u not as frenly as laz time d.. tat time u said to me, if i treat u as fren, i tell u all my prob, but now when i tell u my prob, u just turn away and even if u advice me, its not really frm ur heart, i noe it,.. and i got no one else to tell my prob.. u c.. all my prob is inn my heart now. i cant stand it anymore.. tats y sumtimes i cant think straight.. tats it... when i met u, ok.. we were just frens.. i told u my rpobs, u helped me, my heart was so relieved.. but now.. my life is getting on like last time and i hate it.. ok.. sometimes im irritatiing.. i noe.. but i cant help it~! just the thought tat we were kidnda close las time and now we are like............... enemies.. i cant bear it anymore k .. i noe u hav a gf d.. yea.. i do.. but its not like i like u or wat la.. as a fren k.. u r like my big bro... i dunno la.. such a feeling tat im feeling now is hard to explain.. i just dunno.. mayb we shud not tok to each other already for a while.. mayb it'll b best for both sides.. i even care for u more than i care for my kor kor. u just dunno.. tats it.. sigh.. ok.. lets mayb forget abt it.. im d piece oof shit.. not u k.? just remember tat.. u were always like a star in a sky when everything around me is dark.. tats it.. but the tyruth is,.. i treat u as a big bro.. tat i respect veyr much.. everyone's midsunderstanding me now.. i hate it.. i treat u as a big bro only.. tats it.. tats all.. i think id better stop now and forget abt it.. mayb we were just supposed to be frens as in frens.. not close.. just smile when we see each other.. tats all.. bye~!