ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant think straight now la.. aiyoo.. i also dunno wat to do.. i mean.. like.. i dunno~!!!! yaya... i noe.. everyone's not in the mood to chat.. i mean like EVERYONE~!! and that includes me.. but why? WhY????? i just cant answer it myself.. cannot.. i dunno la.. i mean.. im having probs with everyoe.. EVERYONE~! wats wrong with me? the problem is not with them.. but me~! ME~!! wHy??? gawd.. if im ever gonna figure it out.. it'll take a lifetime.. i mean.. i myself dun understand my true self... what abt others? sometimes i just feel like giving up, commit suicide and tats it.. end of life.. some how i wish i can do it.. but how? i just cant leave my life now.. apart from all the bad things, im also going thru a lot of good things.. wasted to leave it all behind.. dont ya think? ya.. but come to think ofit, i might commit suicide.. if i am really really depressed... seriously depressed.. now im only like.. depressed.. not till tat bad.. but .. OMG~! im really out of words.. nothing to say.. im just like.. dunno.. not bored.. but.. i dunno.. nothings working out the way its supposed to be.. nothing.. nothing at all.. gosh.. how depressing that can b.. alrite.. now im like.. chattin to no one.. was chattin to sumone who was in the mood to talk but i actually pissed off in the conversation and.. now he's offline.. no reply when i msg him.. god.. thats bad.. now im bad.. well, there is this saying that goes.. 'if u r angry, just shut up and walk away..' .. guessss its kinda true.. and i read frm a book.. it goes.. 'sometimes when we're feeling hurt, we take it out on other peopl, just because they happen to be there'.. yeap.. true again.. sigh.. tat shows how much we can learn frm story books eh.. now.. let me see what can i write sumore.. ok so im going for a school trip to kl tomoro... need to wake up early.. and.. travel to kl.. with irritating ppl in the bus.. how i wish i can get rid of them by just saying a sentence or sumthing.. i wish i can.. but nah.. i guess im not tat bad after all.. u see.. another person spoil my mood.. my mood was getting better.. but someone just spoiled it... sad case indeed.. im getting more and more annoyed with myself.. dunno y.. i just feel as if.. im..... a black sheep who doent noe she is black and thinks she is white.. does it makes sense? nope.. dun think so.. now.. eveyrone's having patience.. except me.. the stoopid sheep.. why? dunno y.. its never gona be answered tat question.. guess the one whom i need when im down is also quite not in the mood now.. owh, well.. i think i will not be so selfish anymore.. people need privacy too ryte? yea.. guess so.. guess tats it la for now.. dowanna steal ur time. tat is even anyone is reading this.. chill babay~ like come on, i keep asking ppl to chill whe they're down or angyr or not in the mood, but me myself.. not chilling out:? i mean.. how can i chill out? im like sooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad at that.. i just wanna cry now.. let go off everything..