of working hard and dreaming.

people say.. "dream like u never dreamt before". yeah i think its something like that. i admit lar i have been FREAKING extremely lazy and relaxed after trials. its bad. i know. but i cant help it. i dont know whats wrong. i watch "the pursuit of happyness" earlier. well i didnt really watched it all la. just the ending. its about a father and son. the mom left them. and the father didnt have any job. and they had no money and no place to stay. the father would carry with them all their baju in a suitcase all over town. Fortunately, he got a part time job at some company. i think its some company dealing with shares and all. he worked hard. everyday, even though they only had enough for themselves, like orang melayu say, "kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang", they still loved each other very much. they would put up at a church. and the father would donate blood, to get some money when they really pokai d. there was one part, the father said, "when i was young, when i got good grades for my history tests, i knew one day i would be someone big." and then he continued, "but as the years passed, it seems like i have become nothing, no one." and the story continues. oh, btw, even tho he just has enough money, he still sends his son to school. kindergarten i think. anyway, he worked very hard to find people, and to convince them to buy the shares and ionvest. in the end, he managed to tarik lots of people, hence boosting the companie's erm.. profit? gee i duno lah! so, u know how people who only work part time have to stop working right? well, the say came and he was called into the boss' office. to his shock, he was employed. this meant, he was going to have a REAL job. and earn fixed salary every month for him and his son. he cried when he was told the good news. and he was so so so happy, that he went out of the office bulding, to his son's kindergarten, picked him up, and hugged him. and then he said.. "at that moment, i felt it- HAPPINESS". when i saw that, i was almost in tears. yeah, im kinda emo during movies and all. but then, i think to myself.. THATS what i want in march next year. to have tears of joy in my eyes, in my parents' eyes. i want it. my 11 A1's. i want that. but i have to work for it. the movie proves everything doesnt it? you work hard, you try hard, you dont give up, you have faith in yourself, you believe that things will get better. and walla! the perfect outcome awaits you. yaya. but its easier said than done. and that line.. the one on scoring an A in history test. it proves that doesnt mean we emerge triumphant now, we will succeed in life, in out future. and vice versa. we should not be over confident of ourselves. this, is an extremely good movie. i wana watch it again. after SPM. haha. anyway sigh. i dont know why my life is so screwed up now except the fact that my trial results are ok, but not good. whats wrong with everything la?