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=/ i dont like it when u dont reply my messages. i dont like it when u dont understand what kind of situation i am in. i dont like it when u sleep early when i need u. i dont like it when u cant teman me late late. i dont like it when u date with ur darl and forget abt me. i dont like it when u use the word 'wateva', 'zzz' and give me cold shoulders. i dont like it when u dont know wat words to use to comfort me. i dont like it when u say its ok that im fat. i dont like it when u giv me the funny face when i talk abt hot guys. i dont like it when i need someone to blame and i cant blame u. BUT im still happy that u r my didi! and nevermind those 'i dont like it when's.. coz i have more 'i like it when's! =) sayangs! hope no one is jealous ya. hehe! nola.. where got. sayang u la. =/ swt. dun say bad words lar. in ur shoutout. =/ i'll miss u when u go fc! hahahahaha! but i'll miss someone more! LOL =P oh gosh. WHYYYY did i even ask u to make d 3 week promise thingy? ish. now i regret. lol. ok. since u wont reply coz u very obedient, i complain at here la ok. 1. WAT is jeff talking abt? the jie miss u thingy? 2. and please study. ur fren say dun study. haha. up to u wana study anot la. 3. u ask me c d stranger 'water' profile. i duno which one? must be the one i dont understand anything at all wan lar. 4. im gonna fail my exams. i know, tmr i got paper so im supposed to be studying but i cant help it? 5. i just looked at myslef in d mirror and im getting FAT! only 2nd day of exam! 6. im sleeping way too much. 7. i want a baby. 8. i want a teletubbie doll. i WANT. and i want a hug. 9. i cant wait for hols. i wan go shopping. wan come? 10. oh ya, u knw d baju i bought for u? nv c u wear aso.. 11. i got alot more to complain but not enuf space. haha! aiyo, u wan approve this anot aso nvm la. just wana complain. =/ lols. tata! so those are some comments i sent to my di. yeah. i do sayang him alot. and i said b4 tht if he ever gets a gal tht doesnt like me, i'll back out. he hasnt found the girl yet. but he has friends. who are my friends too. and its amazing what a human can do. simple words can create so much problem. im not jealous. i hope. i just.. dont know what to say. maybe its me being too sensitive. mayb im the one who has changed. mayb im selfish. i dont know. all i know is, everything is so screwed up. i practically screwed up everything. this is me, anyway. i alwasys screw things up. and he's angry with me now. not teplying my messages, not picking up my calls, and cancelling my calls. and u wana know something? i sayang him alot. i put him ahead of my friends. and now that this is happening.. i feel very, broken. i cant concentrate on my studies. i dont know why. elynn, what have you done?