shity shit shit

life sucks. it does. life is getting tougher. i dont think i can survive. form4 isnt easy. plus the pressure from the people around me, the stupid jobs teachers asks us to do.. some tat they can even do it themselves, the time i ahve for myslef is.. limited. i didnt even sleep that day. went on dong my work whole night. next morning, went to school, again, runniong round the school. why? teachers. i dunno why i just hav this thing with teachers. especially in my school. mayb its me. i dunno.. why then again, why do so many pupils tend to apply for transfer? to a near school? i would have applied if my dad allowed. my only choice of getting out is eventually, scholarships to singapore. oh, and MRSM and asrama penuh.. which i doubt i will get or even go. i have been trying so hard to not be in the school i am in now since.. since form1. wait, even before i was in form1, i knew i wouldnt like being in this school. sometimes i ask myself, why am i feeling like this? i cant find a reason. i can find reasons.. but the truth is, its not the BIG BIG stuffs tat matters. its those little little things.. that will eventually make someone unhappy. and then again, i begin to wonder why many students want to transfer here. there is good in this school, i hav to admit. but .. well i hav nothing to say. im too pissed.