im lost.. so so lost..

i missed school lessons and tuition lesson for my 3 day pandu puteri camp. and heck, tht camp was so boring. they practically fed us so much and we did so little activities! and my group, the unlucky one, didnt get to do flying fox. ok nvm.. then when i got home, my stamina droped like crazy! serious, very vry sad case. nearly cried. i used to swim abt 5 to 6 laps very fast then only tired.. but tat day.. i swam only 1 lap and i couldnt take it anymore! argh!!! damn i was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dissapointed. sighz.. and another one, pancha's tuition.. he taught the very important topic! 2 unknowns in one linear equation! and i missed his class! argh! sobs~ dunno la.. when i got back to school.. i was so lost.. teacher was teaching but my mind wasnt there coz i was still so blurr abt wat teacher was trying to tell us.. i think im gonna fail my pmr. pmr is like.. 150 days more only lar k! and i didnt even knw tat we will b sitting for one latih tubi or selaras test on this wednesday and friday for sejarah and geografi. ah! i cant b bothered. i guess. im not prepared for anything! im starting to give up hope. life is treating me so badly~ so.. i tot i would b able to catch up in school.. but sadly, squash competition is this coming tuesday.. sighz.. during school hours. pathetic isnt it? as i said, im giving up hope lar! yea.. so tats it.. babye! *sobs*