dont i exist?

my days in 2005 totally sucks.. i just donno why.. everyone's acting like they hate me.. what can i do?? well, my mom asked my to change my attitude as my new year resolution.. so, i changed..! i decided to be myself.. and now everone hates me.. i was just pretending to be someone last year., this year ,. i am myself.. and everyone hates me.. do i even exist?? i often ask myself that..